When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be
Good morning caffeine lovers!
Today’s Brew: K-Cup with pumpkin spice creamer Location: The couch
Its PUMPKIN SPICE season ya’ll!!! Can I get a big white girl WHOOP WHOOP!!!
Its been a crazy couple of weeks here in Letha land, and because of that I took a little hiatus. And for that I apologize!
One of my best friends turned 30!! We had so much fun celebrating her and this new decade in her life! –We can never get it together for pictures! But that’s why I love her– I got an opportunity to see Taylor Swift in concert! FLOOR SEATS! To say it was amazing would be an understatement! I don’t think Ill ever be able to sit in nose bleeds again. Although my bank account would beg to differ. Last Night Kim (A wonderful woman) gave some of us a yoga class. She is studying to be a yoga instructor and killing it. We all left uplifted and stretched! Afterwards we all sat on Aimee’s back deck had a glass of wine, enjoyed the weather and talked. there are many things I enjoy doing with my friends, but the most important memories are the ones where we get lost in conversation and start to realize how far we’ve come.
So ya, its been a pretty amazing two weeks. Looking back now I don’t even know how I’m going to write what I’m about to. Writing these blogs are a constant reminder of how blessed I truly am. And for that I am thankful! Although the last couple of weeks have been amazing, I have been struggling with my anxiety.
As we have talked about in other post, I’m an over thinker and a lot of times that causes me to have anxiety. My 30-day challenge has helped a lot. Every time I would start to feel anxious I would tell myself three things.
- God has placed you here for a reason. This is a hard pill for me to swallow. My ambitious little spirit thinks I should be much further in life by now. I am working on being grateful and thankful for the path I have been given. and I want more than ever to walk it with grace and peace.
- You have over come far much worse than this. This may be odd but when I start to spiral down into my anxiety rabbit hole, I start to think of all the trials I have faced. For some this may make your anxiety stronger, for me it reminds me that I am strong. I have over come the darkness before and I will again.
- You NEVER give up. Every morning I wake up and start my day. No matter what I’m feeling or what trial I’m facing, My day goes on. I REFUSE to let my anxiety control this amazing life I have been given. I REFUSE to let a little self doubt keep me from running the race and I REFUSE to keep my strength locked down.
When I had the idea for the 30 day challenge, I had no idea how much I would need it in the weeks coming up. Please know, just because I told myself these encouraging words, I still broke down. More than once. I still went to bed feeling defeated. But every morning when I would wake up I knew I had a choice. I could give in or fight. And if you have ever tried to scare me by jumping out of a room, you know my first reaction is to fight. I DO NOT FLIGHT. (fight or flight–anatomy look it up)
This weekend is going to be an exciting one. Its my dads Birthday and are celebrating with a cookout. My father is truly and inspiration. He has had every reason to quit and give up on life. But he keeps fighting and keeps surviving. He is my inspiration. I don’t know how many more birthdays we will have with him, but I also don’t know how many more birthdays I will have for myself. We are not promised tomorrow, but what a blessing to know as Christians we are promised an everlasting life.
If your still following me on this journey in self discovery, Thanks for hanging out! And if you ever find yourself spiraling down into anxiety…what three things will you tell yourself?
Until Next time caffeine queens